i cannot speak unless i am certain i am speaking perfectly. i need to be understood correctly. if i am misunderstood i want it to not be my fault.

this trait has made me unable to learn to speak other languages. i’m somewhat sad that i can’t have a normal relation to language. it has been especially an obstacle with my relationship with honeysuckle and aloe.

but i love to listen to the sounds of people speak, i love to look at words, and i love to read about languages. i have even made a language map. it can still be fun to learn within this constraint. and also my friends can often help cover for me, thankfully.

yay!